P . Blackburn . 2013
The rest is history……..
I met with Pamela for the introductory Gateway sessions 1:2:1 at my home. It seemed the best thing to do. I had touched on Meditation, briefly, but, never-the-less, felt apprehensive. From the outset, Pamela put me at my ease and brought positive energy, healing energy into my space. By the end my calm centre was returning, my still centre was safe and my belief in my ability to surmount all difficulties and achieve balance, was restored – no mean feat!
From here I moved on to Soul Lights (in a group of 4) and gradually through Pamela’s warmth, intuitive support and professionalism came a much deeper level of spiritual awareness. She supported us all with a real sense of caring and understanding. We were encouraged to progress along our own pathways and we now came to know something of the breadth and scope of Meditation practices and where we, as individuals fitted in. How different I was at this point: Gone was the angst-ridden burdened woman bowed down by worries and grief and stress. Now, decisions were flowing easily. I had house full of workmen for months on end. It was a happy, friendly thing not the “stuff of nightmares”. I was becoming solution-focussed rather than negative. I could see the light ahead. I felt relaxed, calm and in control. Balancing up my underlying sadness was a growing feeling of celebration of all that I’d had … and be glad. Others in the group commented at the changes in me and Pamela was there for me, throughout.
Soul Healing took me even further: into emotional healing and release; tangible relief from intense pressures of grief. I benefitted from the Inner Circle richness of Pamela’s intuitive interpretations of our individual responses each week and this helped enormously. In Meditation now, I began to feel my husband’s presence and glimpses of him at times … highly emotional, bringing tears but incredibly peaceful and supportive, I was touched on a level I had never thought possible.
Now, to the present: It’s several months on and the jigsaw of my life is fuller still, with so much I would have never dreamed of accomplishing, still coming to fruition … in work, at home … and inside of me.
Thanks to Pamela, I now have an inner world I can dip into at will, within minutes, that acts in support, sustains me, yet never invades. I am light years away from those times of black sorrow and pain.
I can NEVER thank Pamela enough.
Robyn Treen 1:2:1
I already had strong spiritual beliefs – and I know that there is more to life than death being the end. I had already successfully made a healing journey with Soul 2 Sole, so it was then I contacted Pamela for her help.
In the one and a half hours together, we looked at the feelings and thoughts that made up my grief. Specific healing meditations were used, some that I’d undertaken in Soul Healing. We explored my grief and the courage it takes to move on. It sort of made sense on the day to me!
Following the session I had 2 very powerful dreams, where my mum re-assured me. Pamela assured me further by explaining the dreams to me. I repeated the meditations I was shown in 1:2:1 – as these sowed the seeds of my healing. Following the 1:2:1 I felt different; previously when others shared their grief with me, this would set me off crying along with them. Now I felt detached from others grief and became less involved emotionally – like I forgot!
In my meditations I spoke to mum as we did in life – telling her about my day. So that I talk to mum where ever I am – like she’s there!
Now some 7 months later I feel a sentimental sadness or wistfulness even, saying “ah mum” when I see her photo, not the earlier powerful and horrible gut wrenching feelings. I now remember the good times and can laugh and smile and listen to her in meditation … especially where mum told me to let go … a very stark and astounding meditation that was filled with light. I feel like she’s with me and on one occasion she helped me through! I was performing in a staged dance show, something from a childhood dream; it was nerve-wracking! At the end with a standing ovation I heard “Chariots of Fire” – which also played at the end of mum’s funeral. Here on stage all my senses were pulled up; as a heightened conscious awareness. I felt like mum was looking down on me.
Once of a day I would never have had the confidence to perform dancing! This confidence and “healing courage” showed itself in the healing meditation with Pamela, where mum said “you know what you have to do.” Up until then I had also been unable to go into mum’s house. But them with my new-found courage and confidence I started the ball rolling with her home, sorting through her things; I told the executors how I needed to do this and that mum was helping me to move on…. I got closure in my life! Empowered with strength to do this, I began to feel different – as I’d lost the longing feelings and could look at mum’s photo and smile. Before my healing I had wanted to avoid Christmas, but now I had a magical and miraculous end to 2012. So much so that people began to comment on how well I have accepted mum’s death.
She hasn’t gone – she’s still with me in soul. It was her body that died – that’s all!
Pamela Skeen – 2013
But then sadly death came, the staff at the hospital spoke in euphemisms, I was angry at their lack of clarity, so I asked “do you mean he is dying?” The reality came crashing down to earth for us all. But at least there was still time left, a few days at most! Family, friends came and went paying their last and final respects. A bedside vigil was created; I opted for several hours alone together, a few hours before his death. As others from the night “shift” needed their sleep. I sat together and spoke at length of the love I felt. The memories of times together. The times we would agree to disagree, the regrets, the loss and the sadness. Letting him know he could let go and we would care for those left behind! I stroked his head and brow comforting as his body closed down approaching death. Cleaning his mouth as the nurse had taught me, his breathing changed as he became closer to death. Like his soul’s midwife I knew death was closing in; the shadows of time moved across his face, he found peace.
I had read of Elizabeth Kubler Ross who found that those dying; some would “wait” to die alone, when their family left the room; others would die in their presence. So I laughed and respected the joker he always was and said how if this was his will, the time is now, as I need to go use the toilet!
I had closure that day, no regrets, no guilt, only sorrow! To accept his death, I wept in sorrow at the funeral that allowed me to let go of all the sadness. All the anger has gone and there is no depression; there is hope you see. Because I am not helpless, meditation brings him back to me, here in my heart and soul!
This is in stark contrast, to the sudden death of my father, when I was 18 years of age. I was in was in some degree of denial for 20 years, holding fantasies of “wishing he was here.” I had no awareness of my spiritual or soul connection at this time. I suffered with guilt, a list of “if only I had said, done …!” Weeping asking God for the 1000th time “why?” Stuck in depression, without a hope of relief! Then in the strangest of circumstances and by then I had opened to my soul awareness; I met an old woman with white hair, who perceptively seemed to recognise my palpable grief. She asked me to close my eyes and whether I could see my father?” I said “Yes, I always can.” In reply she said, “That’s because he is always there with you.” The weight was immediately lifted, something clicked, I felt relief, I HAD CLOSURE – from 20 years STUCK in grief!